This is not the right time to make radical moves, Sag. Your mind is not thinking straight and there is an extreme way of life you have been swinging between. Draw back into yourself. Give yourself permission and time to hear your own thoughts. And then move on to create what you want to. Get out there, do some yoga, breathwork, talk to a tree or simply engage with your body while you work out, minus distractions and external noise or music. It may feel boring at first, but once you truly connect with your body and yourself, there is no going back.
Cosmic tip: Manifest, but first get ready to receive.