There is a chain or a loop you seem to be unable to get out of, Cap, and while this may feel very claustrophobic and entrapping, it is only trying to bring your awareness towards something that you need to consciously shift out of your life. Emotional fulfilment may have been your goal and you achieved it. However, presently, what you need to focus on is gaining an even-paced traction towards where you are headed. Your mantra today needs to be, as above so below. So while you are expanding mentally, remember to also ground your roots equally deeply into the ground you are walking on.
Cosmic tip: Lay structures that support your freedom.